learn to be.............

1st march 2009

we have been together for about four months? what do we know about each other? i know that when i am with you or if i wanna be with you i need to learn :

1. to be silent, which is not to ask questions which i am not supposed to ask, though sometimes i am dying to know

2. to be patient, which means i am not supposed to disturb you, but to wait for your calls or sms, even if you are not going to call or sms me again, all i can ever do is to wait patiently.

3. to be tough, which is to accept whatsoever you are doing outside, i need to be tough even if i am going to find out it is something which is going to hurt myself.

4. to be realistic, which means i must not have to many imaginations and anticipation, cause you told me to not to look into the future, so i can only keep everything i hope to myself.

5. to be pretentious to myself, which is i cannot show you any face or tell you something which i dun like, even if i dun like, i need to ask myself not to be emotional again

6. to be always ready, which means i dun know when again anything is going to happen, for every single thing i am going to do and every single move i am going to take, i need to have hundreds of unknown possibilities, prepare for the worst and accept whatever is predicted.

there are so many things i can learn, but not one thing, which is not to cry...you just do not know how many tears i had before whenever i feel insecure as i thought of what happened and when i think of her...i guess i really love you, or like u very much that i am doing all these so that u wil still be with me...