slowing down

13th November 2008

Honey, you know what? I miss those days when we just got to know each other. You know why? Because you will text me a lot. And so I always keep all those sweet messages and reread them once in a while. For now, you will just call me and there is hardly a sms from you. I know you are a workaholic, you wanna really concentrate on your career, but I am just a normal girl who want a man like you, but will still let me know that you are fine all the while.
What I am trying to say is after we became couple, automatically I will worry about you, and especially I am someone who always thinks a lot. I don’t mean to check on you or don’t trust you, but I just wanna make sure that you are safe. So I really hope that you will send me a message, whatever it is all about, at least one in the morning, one in the afternoon and at night.
I know you told me that we should slow down, and see what future will bring to us, but while slowing down, I hope everything is still going on as normal.
And only if you notice and realize, my personal message in MSN for this time being is “am I always the last one…?”,the last one you will think of and remember after you have got all your things done.

breathing hard..

12th November 2008

Honey, I hope you will remember our deal—you are going to tell me if your “other gals” wanna meet you or they need your help…like I said, I rather I feel unhappy and jealous for awhile when you tell me rather than I find out myself which I guess is going to make things even more complicated.
Like you said, there is nothing you wanna hide away from me. And I hope this is really the case. You also told me that we can talk about anything, remember? But looks like as if I am the only one who tells you whatever I am not happy with, and I am the only one asking you questions. Is it because I am not the one you wanna talk to and can tell me about anything?
Although we had a deal, but in me, I still do not feel good. Not because of “other gals”, but it is something between us, between you and me, honey.
And only if you know, I can hardly breathe now……..

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what am i doing man....nt even an hour ago i was blogging so happily....n i cant stop myself from laughing when i am with you....

but what now?i read ur sms...which i know i shouldn't do so but i cant help it when i saw the msg saying lena was so down these few days...and the one who texted you ask if u still keep in touch with her lately...

the insecurity in me again is fooling me...i start thinking is it i am not the oly 1 whom you miss at night...then i start to imagine how you worry about her...and how she needed you...

i am sorry...u told me that your histories with them were really complicated...but i know they meant alot to you...and what we are having now....what i can give to you...is really nothing compare to theirs...

cheese lover..... :)

you just do not know how i really like to be at your place,just the two of us...you were having bread with cheese and peanut jam...n i was laughing all the way....what i was laughing was i cannot imagine what will happen if we were both locked up in a CHEESE FACTORY or CHEESE STORAGE....wakaka..... :)

by the way, i really like to look at you when you are working in front of you laptop....so suave so charming....

and thanks honey for always giving me the best....always let me have food with more cheese.. and i love you... :)

someone like you....

wakaka....sorry honey, i lied to you.actually i was napping when u called me up....dun be so mean k?i will study....

when i was with my ex that time, i never dream of him until he and i broke up...but this time it is different.i dreamt of you again just now when i was napping..it was raining heavily and you took an umbrella and found me..and protecting me from becoming wet....well till then u called me up, u asked me to meet you at the carpark in 15 mins time...i asked is it u need me to pass you something but u told me u have something wanna pass to me...when i met you that time...hmm...it's me favourite cheese and also cheese spread...because it is running out of cheese at ur place and u are afraid that i do not have enough to eat....how sweet of you my honey...

i am sure my mum will definitely feel happy for me for having someone like you who always take care of me...i might not be the in the first place in your heart, but i am sure you have me somewhere important still in your heart. and for the first time, let me tell you "i love you,honey" ..

~*Faith*~

although there are still uncertainties in me, but i really hope that i found the right person in my life...

this is the second time i went hiking at Bukit Jambul...and totally two different experience...the first time i would say it was S-U-C-K-S!!godbro kept pushing me up...ya in his point of view was to encourage me but.......

this time it was different... :) i went with my honey and he kept telling me to take my time, take one step at a time...and when we came down that time, we took another route which is more challenging, but i was not afraid at all...because i know that i can count on him for sure..i do not have to worry about anything, all i need to do is to trust him and let him lead me all the way through...

and although both my godbro and honey are photographers, but that way both of them tell me about camera is totally different, honey was so patient and let me tried to do some shooting and showed me some pointers...

i do not know what future will bring, but i do hope that if the future permits, me to be his and only his.... :)

uncertain.........

i found someone whom i excatly want, i mean the kind of partner i want in my life, but what?am i happy? yes, i was happy...very thankful, but not really until just now..just becoz some1 is so good..n there is when the gap comes in....you feel so freak out that he is tired of u for not knowing so many things...now i understand what my mum told me...she was saying why do i wanna find some1 so good? later people wont love me as much as i love him only i know...ya...and been doubting abt it ...