my honey....

22nd Dec 2010

I was at his place yesterday. I was fooloing with him, said i will do sth to some other guy then..and that's when his mood change. And we talked...only I realize in these 2 months time, the minus-es i bring to him more than plus-es. And these minus-es consist of my V, our religion, I mentioned others' name, and he saw my pics with jerk are still in my laptop.

And as he talked, he cried. he said he is serious with our relationship, he cared about me and he doesn't want to loss me. This is the 1st time a guy cried for me like this when we re only 2 months together..

unhappy

11th Oct 2010

he's at my place....then we were discussing about going back to melaka. coz of his conference..we cant go back earlier as planned...then...i asked if he could change his leave....instead he asked me "2days 2 nights not enough?"..i thk it's selfish of him...

then my sis came bk...and i asked if i should tell the truth...he said "if i go bk with u...it means sth right..." so i said we have to both feel comfortable...n he said.. "are we that stable yet"

ah...i thk it hurts... sob sob...

Finally................ :)

24th Oct 2010

Today we went hiking at Saga hill...then as usual, we went for breakfast...and i felt sleepy, so i took a nap at his place..then when I woke up...he lied down on my stomach..then we talked..watched movie...n he ironed clothes...

Then....we kissed....and i got naughty and made him high... :P
But what important most is..we sat down and talked about everythg...and "I want you to be my girlfriend, would you let me be your boyfriend" (sth like this... :p)...so ya...it's official....and let's start anew... :)

kissing you....

23rd Oct 2010

I am not sure what kind of status we are in now. Friend? Or more than just friend?

hmm...btw, he again for the 3rd time, but not in a tipsy condition, told me that he thinks he like me...but he is not sure..but he cares about me...and he is not sure if he shud start a relationship now, coz he thinks he is not stable yet as in like work ...

I am not sure either...we kissed...coz i sorta asked for it...i told him if he wants me to go home instead of going out with yi ling...then he has to kiss me and so he did..n i thk i like the way he held my waist tight , pulled me close ..and then kiss me...he even asked if we can lie down n let him cuddle me for awhile...then we kissed again, with him laying on top of me..

:)

i m not sure either........

10 October 2010

8th Oct 2010- they (anand, gary, tux) thinks that sharing food in a relationship is important. and tux totally agree to it.....and when i said the food on others' table looks good...he said i dun have the right to say so.. it all totally make me upset.

9th Oct 2010-we are going to aun ling's housewarming...he called and said "hey...later you must eat the spaghetti i cook..i guarantee you no meat ..only mushroom"...coz according to him i said b4 if he cook then i will eat...n so i gave it a try coz i think he is sincere.. then in the car on our way to aun ling's place, he kept on yawning...i asked him y is he so tired...he said he din slp whole night...and of course i asked why...he said "coz sum1 turned off the phone"...n this action of mine caused him din slp well...

hmmm....i m not sure if i like him....n if he likes me...but i feel bad whwn he actually said sharing food is important...it means or sounds like he does not like me...coz he is clear that i dun eat like everyone else and sharing food is important to him...and...they way he looked at her...i thk he still likes her but he cant do anything coz she is ard with sum1 else...

can i meet more new guys so tat i can get him out of my mind?

o...m...g.....

5th july 2010

just another day when i feel like writing sth here in a long abandoned blog of mine......

i think....my feeling towards him is becoming stronger

i think....i dun wanna get hurt again...coz i can feel a lil now.......not to the extend of reallu hurt....but just a lil heartache

i think.....i m thinking too much n i m shutting myself out of others

i think.....i am a mess

i think....i shud just really stay focus ...n focus.......n never think about loving again.......

but how can i remind myself of that n really really just execute it.....

do i have feeling on him...?

26th May 2010

just came from sabah kk trip..n i miss the trip so much...i wish we could all spend more time together...n i thk i m liking him...

i miss the time when he hugged me in the club,then we were touching our forehead,so close...i miss the time when he taught me how to float n they way he spoke to me softly n the way he looked into my eyes...i miss the time when there were only two of us while we were on our way up to laban rata...i miss the time when we were in the plane bk from kk,where i lean on his shoulder....n i miss the time when he held me n asked me to stop smoking,he looked so serious and i like it.....

but now,i am not sure if i m really liking him or i m just so needing a guy's touch and love...how m i supposed to react n feel heartache if he is liking sum1 else??i guess i need to hold myself bk so that i wont feel so bad at the end of the day, when he is in love with sum1 else....